Idolization, addiction, and toxicity have been a few of my least favorite words this past week as I dove into Scripture, sermons and books. A big question faces me as I reflected on my studies:
“Are you escaping into _________? “
The escape, at times, has been food, marriage, and alcohol; that once-in-awhile habit easily tried to take up space in the emptiness of my heart.
Occasionally, I enjoy a glass of champagne, especially to celebrate. But, if I drank until I got drunk on weekends, I’ve formed a bad habit. To say, “just one more,” is an indication that the first three really didn’t fill me with whatever it is my soul is longing for.
The desire to be known in the loneliest of times is our longing to be connected to our Creator. Nothing can fill an empty space like God does, as God created life from emptiness:
God created life and made it good! It is only natural that our souls long for the emptiness within to be filled by the One who it was created by – the One who gives life and abundance.
One positive habit that I began about twelve years ago is running. Running is rewarding in a lot of ways. I love the challenge of a long run, the quiet mornings when I turn off my music and my pace is steadied only by my breath, and the sun shining on my face. Being in nature reminds me that God is near, and God is with me. On cold days, I often lift up my hands in praise to God when a really good song comes on, all while running on the treadmill in a busy gym. I’m sure people look at me and think I’m strange, but I don’t care! The opportunity to be in touch with my body and praise God are the moments that bring me back to running, no matter the challenge.
God gave me life when I was lost 11 years ago – after I repented and asked for forgiveness. Let me assure you that God delivers!! Not only did God give me life through His Spirit, but gave it abundantly.