ENOUGH
LORD, hear my cry
The roots You planted deep
In my heart are being pulled
And tangled up with weeds
The seeds of joy are
Experiencing tumultuous
Weather
Jesus the true vine
Shows up
Takes no time
“Quiet, be still!”
The wind dies down
Rays of sunlight beam
In my heart
This temple God says
Is HIs
Do not let bitterness take
Root but bury me with
Your joy and love
Weeds try to twist and
Entangle
The body aches and
Cries as it sees only
Demise. How could Jesus
Have died? The movement
Is gone – as quick as a
Magic trick as time keeps
Tick…Tick…Ticking into
An open sea of doubt
Where are the fish?!
Does it matter that I even
Eat? Jesus walked on
This water
Inviting me to believe
That supernatural experience
Became my testimony
The water reached my knees
As I started to sink
Help me, Jesus
Utterances of the fear
That doubts Jesus’ love
And faith every day
Is that how my friends
See me?
Peter, the man who started to sink.
Peter, the overzealous betrayer.
Peter, who couldn’t stick it out
To the end.
Peter, the failure.
Then Jesus appears
Alive and very well.
Let your love for me be
An act of service to the poor, needy and those
Who need to be free
You’ll have my spirit
And will always be with me.
Lead God’s children that
They may not go astray
Peter, was reinstated on
That very day.
To be honest, shaking off the old self talk of not being good enough is no easy feat; I have years worth of junk to replace with what God wants to turn for His good.
He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.
Psalm 147:3
Before looking up the meaning of the word enough, enough felt more or less like I was doing okay. Maybe a C average for a grade in life. Yet, when we look at the Hebrew words, they are way more telling than our English meanings.
The Cambridge English Dictionary defines the word ‘enough’ as:
1) As much as is necessary.
2) As much as or more than is wanted. Example: I’ve had enough of your excuses!
‘enough’ in Hebrew:
1) Much
2) Many
3) Great
4) Abounding in.
5) Captain
6) Chief
“I am enough as a Mom” Could sound like….
“I am doing GREAT as a Mom”
“I am enough.” Could be replaced with
“I am a CHIEF!“
The pain of not being enough, according to the worlds standards, is no longer my identity. There is no pattern or rhyme to the beautiful truth of how God sees you and me, as enough.
Love these reflexion! I needed the reminder, dear friend!